Gday and morning indonesia, today it's your birthday but it feels just like another day. I don't feel free, I never feel free when it comes to you Indonesia. Watching you getting older but never get any wiser. Every single day I've been forced to watch you sink in wrong hands, you're not that old but you had to took all that burden, human sometimes can turn into a beast huh? accident, criminal, social and political problem makes me became more apathy towards your future. I wish there's something that I can do to help you, but sometimes I feel powerless. I'm scientist, we used to be treated with no respect. Many engineer, scientist flee to the other country, other foreign company because we have no more respect towards the people who runs you. but don't worry, someday when I have more power to changes people I'll come back to save you. But today I have to save my self and gain more power to change my self. We'll do it inside out, many people usually do it in reverse. Many youngster busy trying to change the world without change from inside first and they got nothing. God, I wish I can make it through this era without hurting my self or my kids someday!!

I recently watched lord of the rings trilogy and when I saw aragorn or theoden, the king of rohan appeared and gave some bad ass speech to the army, It kinda reminds me of bung tomo and his awesome speech. What kind of power he gave to Indonesian people until they have guts to stand up and fight without any fear of death??
where is he now? where we can find his heir?
I'm looking for them, but they're gone. I can see that you're crying right now Indonesia. You're getting older, getting tired of all this agony and pain. Yes we can't handle you, till now I always think Indonesian people don't have enough responsibility to take care of you.

But for now, for your birthday I'll pray for you. Someday, there will be times when beautiful people rise and lead your land beautifully. Someday you'll proud of us, of our people. Hang on there Indonesia, Thank you so much for providing us with beautiful  food, water, earth, trees without asking for any feedback. Lord, please take care of my country and keep it safe and surround with your love as always. Amen.

Happy birthday :)